He Believes in You

God believes in you.

"Just because it's cliche', doesn't mean it's not true" - Kurt, on "Glee"

Quite a few years ago my sister and I were having a conversation.  "You've always believed in God" she said. No. Something like  "You've always been curious about God"  would be a statement that is much closer to the truth.  I've believed for quite a few years now, but it hasn't always been that way.  My entire life up to this moment has been a journey toward recognizing that God is very real and very interested in me. The recent years have found me longing to be more like Him, to see like He does, to feel like He does, to love like He does.  I know now, that His way is better than mine.

Last night I watched an episode of a favorite TV show of mine "Glee".  A majority of the show was seen from the perspective of one of the main characters, Kurt, a young man with intense talent, a caring and compassionate personality. He is gay and has endured unimaginable suffering because of it.  In this episode, his dad was gravely ill.  Kurt made it very clear, when some of his friends tried to comfort him, that he had absolutely no interest in, and was frankly angry about the idea that there is a God who loves him.  As I watched this young man's suffering and sadness my heart was heavy.  So many people think and feel just like Kurt... and can I blame them? 

There is precious little evidence of people who, myself included, say they want to be like Jesus, but aren't actually BEING like Jesus.  The worldly view of Christianity is so skewed because it is colored by people like me, who despite saying we follow Jesus, don't always do it, we pick and choose.  We say we don't judge other people, but our tone, our demeanor, our attitude and our actions scream that we do.  We say that we love people, but our choices and priority's prove that we don't.  We say that we know Jesus, but the truth is we actually don't.  I want to be like Jesus, the cry of my heart is that I can love like He loves.  I say that I can love the sinner while hating the sin... and by His grace, it's true... I am closer to doing that than I ever have been.  I spent so many years judging myself, and so, others... it's tough to fight the temptation of falling back into that pattern. I have a long way to go.  I am so grateful that I don't have to go it alone.

My heart ached as I watched "Glee" last night.  So many people think and feel just like Kurt.    

Jesus said that everyone who looks for Him will find Him.  My prayer today is that you will look for Him.